Flora & Flexibility

This slideshow requires JavaScript.

This is new painting I did a couple of weeks ago. As an artist, I’m finally feeling as if I’ve found my style or niche. This goes hand in hand with being comfortable with whatever the finished product looks like.

Many artists (or ones that I’ve read about or have known personally) claim to be their own worst critics. I think there’s a flavor of perfectionism that accompanies this mindset. Mainly, that what one has outlined in their mind should closely mirror what ends up on canvas or other desired media. I used to be this way. But I’ve learned to find solace in things not ending up they way we want. Isn’t that a much more profound adherence to life in general? Being flexible and “rolling with the punches” turns any situation into the right one.

Gregory Hays’ translation of Marcus Aurelius’ “Meditations” highlights this discriminating but useful quality:

To live life in peace, immune to all compulsion. Let them scream whatever they want. Let animals dismember this soft flesh that covers you. How would any of that stop you from keeping your mind calm—reliably sizing up what’s around you—and ready to make good use of whatever happens? So that Judgment can look the event in the eye and say, “This is what you really are, regardless of what you may look like.” While Adaptability adds, “You’re just what I was looking for. Because to me the present is a chance for the exercise of rational virtue—civic virtue—in short, the art that men share with gods. Both treat whatever happens as wholly natural; not novel or hard to deal with, but familiar and easily handled.

Lovers

Acrylic Art Painting

I like love. It’s an interesting concept. Relationships are also very interesting. I’m especially intrigued by the concept of partner selection and monogamy.

For example, some people choose as a partner and up marrying someone from their own hometown without ever having lived in another city, state, or country. Compatibility is one facet of partner selection, which can be defined as shared set of mutual and/or complementary lifestyles, values, or interests.

Based on that very specific criteria, isn’t it kind of absurd to think that the person selected in your hometown is the most compatible individual for you (since it’s a matter of probability: less people you’re exposed to = less pool of potential compatible individuals)? One might argue that absolute compatibility isn’t the goal, but isn’t getting along a very crucial element to relationship success? Maybe it’s my assumption that compatibility equates to getting along, but it seems like people who share something have a vested interest in it and may be more inclined to protect it. Therefore, the more you have in common the more you will likely get along.

I find myself playing out these mental exercises from time to time. Love is an amazing topic to try to deconstruct because there are so many variables to consider. However, the above painting is not a meta analysis of love. It’s just my rendering of two images I found online, which I believe to be medieval in nature (I could be wrong). I felt the concept embodied the light pillowy feeling of love coupled with the stern seriousness of commitment, which is my perception of what relationships are.

Los Angeles Collage

Los AngelesI did this collage a while back. It’s a random assortment of imagery. I’m sure there’s some subconscious representation of how I feel in one or more of the images.

Los Angeles is a mixed bag of emotion for me. On the one hand, it’s my home. The place where I was born and raised, which essentially shaped who I am today. On the other hand, coming back and being immersed in change makes it seem like a foreign territory. Almost like an extended vacation of sorts. “Hotel California” comes to mind. A place where you can go, but never leave (in reference to memories that exist of things that once were). That’s obviously an over-dramatization, but life changes such as moving back or away from home are a pretty big deal.

“Adjusting” to life back in LA has been tricky. I’ve been in a bit of funk lately for erroneously thinking I could glide back into to the swing of things here. Instead of a NYC rude awakening, I got a chill SoCal morning call. As both wake you from your (hopefully) blissful slumber, neither is very pleasant. But I’m happy to have realized that the life I want is the life I’m willing to work for and not one that is miraculously going to fall from the sky.